when talking about trauma and abuse and shit publicly i try very hard to stay vague. or i try to minimise certain people viewing it. not only as a form of protection for myself and self preservation but also because i feel i have to protect the people who caused it all or because it is a big can of worms that feels too big to get into and i am afraid of consequenses of speaking these things. i am afraid of hurting people who hurt me, harming people who harmed me and it is so silly. I really want to be more brave about this in my art. I want to explore these topics more.