Just a note - although I had this dream on the morning of the 16th, I am only writing this on the 17th.
MY LORD THIS DREAM WAS VERY VERY NSFW, NC17 AS SUCH I AM NOT GOING TO DESCRIBE IT BUT JUST TRY TO MENTION IT VAGUELY.
so it was a weird sex dream with a girl i grew up with but she had male anatomy and for some reason her dad was nearby talking and it was very intense and i was and am very confused lmfaooooooooo. like i um..... know why i had this flavour of dream BUT WHY WERE THESE PEOPLE IN IT?????? WHY??????? WHY?????????????????????????????
it would be one thing if I had ever at all been attracted to this person, but nope, never was, never will be. although you know what...... now that I'm thinking about it... she probably was one person who used to TALK to me about sex stuff in our preteens and I was kinda honestly a bit disturbed by her interest in it(or her obsession with certain relevant things) (and also mostly cuz I felt especially prudish talking about it with people from my church of which she WAS/still is a member)
Actually kinda makes sense now....... Maybe I was processing some internalised shame and stuff... who knows/its personal stuff I don't wanna get into here atm. brains are wild. Which is why I have made this lil blog. I really do think that dreams are important for emotional and mental processing and that understanding their meanings can be a really helpful. While I do definitely look at books and information about common meanings for certain themes or visuals in dreams as a staring point sometimes, I very much believe that each individual's dreams will only ever be truly reflect ones owns specific situations/experiences and subconcious beliefs/preconceptions about the themes they contain.
My intention with starting this lil blog is to see if it helps my emotional understanding of myself. Even if my dreams are NOT actually as deep as I evaluate them to be in waking life, I still find the excercise a valuable tool for introspection.